
dear diary, i've neglected you lately huh?!?!? or i guess.. not really. i've been blogging but i haven't been posting them because they were sad! and i know the people who come for the cute pink polka dots aren't trying to read about my grievances! i say that to say a lot has happened in these three months! i got my other nostril pierced! it def wont be healed by next marching season but whatevs lol "TuT i'll leave a selfie i took on my gfs phone below! it kiiinda shows the piercing but kinda not? you'd probably have to zoom in realll close to see it. idkkk whateverrr.

the first week of june i was stuck at band camp in da heattt D: it was super duper weird because we kinda don't have a band director right now... so our band camp served as their 'auditions'. a couple of them were nice, but the rest suckeddd... everyone wants us to be an hbcu show style band just because we're mostly black. we're a core style band! its our thing! but whatevs, i just hope we won't get stuck with one of the directors who were set on making us do show style. i just wanna have fun this year instead of feeling miserable all the time. on the last day of camp, i lost my glasses! that made me really sad. i really liked those glasses, even though they made me kinda not cute.. i'll get some new ones soon, but i don't think they'll live up to these fames' standard! okok lastly, i've been applying to a lottt of jobs! i hope they reach back out to me, the waiting part is a painnn...
dear diary, my librarian is finally back after like a whole year, so i decided to go to the library!! i remembered it has a manga section and it seemed really promising!! i ended up picking shugo chara, but what i thought was volume 1.. was actually volume 11. i dont really feel like going back, so i guess im starting it at 11! so far, it looks really cute, so i dont even mind!!
02/26/2026 a supa cool black history month performance! (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)وdear diary, happy black history month! i know its tens of days too late to be saying that, but outside of my little cyber world, ive been celebrating a bunches!!! today my school had a bhm performance with dancers, a singer, and a few people out of our band! i wish i knew how to play jazz (or was even good at my instrument >_>") because it was really really cool to watch and listen to!! i wish i was more talented so i could be in things like that.. but all i do is play instruments that no one would ever care about.. T_T
02/25/2026 my first time in a church.. {{ (>_<) }}dear diary, i went to a church with my friend today. im not sure why he invited me of all people, im probably the farthest from god a human can get. it took me a lot of thinking to even consider going, i was so scared that my skin was gonna boil and peel off the second i stepped foot into a church!!! :'( but! that didnt happen. we just played just dance and ate pizza! i prayed for the first time in a very long time, but i didnt feel like i was praying to god. i dont know what i was praying to, but i prayed. i wish i had better experiences with christianity because the church was pretty fun, but i still felt like i really didnt belong there..
02/14/2026 happy valentine's day! ++ silly cute photos! (´ ω `♡)happy valentine's day, my lovelies! today was so awesome!!! i went to my good friend's galentine's day party and we had the funnest time :3 my voice is sooo sore from yelling during uno and charades but it was so worth it!! i loved my outfit and makeup today too, probably one of my favorite event looks ive ever done on myself!!! my friend said she's gonna make this an annual thing, so im super excited! you can see some photos from tonight below, a few with my gorgeous friends who i love sm!!!!



dear diary, today was a very... confusing day. the thursday before a long weekend is always awesome! but this one kinda wasnt?! my school's doing this spirit week thing, and today's theme was to wear a color that corresponded with your relationship status. i wore the color for taken because.. i am! but when my friends saw me wearing it, they made jokes, which is normal, but it's almost as if those jokes went too far?? in my eyes, they were jokingly exiling me from their conversation because i was the only non-single one there, but then it started feeling like they genuinely just didn't want to talk to me :'( it was funny at first but i feel like they let the bit go on too far that it felt like they were actually upset at me. maybe that's just me being a baby, idk.. but in other news, since i wouldn't see my girlfriend on valentine's day, we exchanged gifts today! she made me cookies, and they were dabomb.com!!! _ i made her a very decorated card (since i had to give her something kinda discreet..) and she cried!! like three times!!! i know they were tears of joy and she was happy about the gift, but omg it feels so bad making your gf cry!!! three times!!! ">_> i know its just 'stupid teenage love', but i really do think i'm in love with this girl!!! i don't ever want her to exit my life.. ever!!!
dear diary, today was such an awesome day!!! i got to make authentic salvadorian pupusas in my spanish class!! spanish is one of my favorite classes, so i get super duper happy whenever we do something fun in there! this school year hasn't really had the best start (i've def already missed too many assignments in one of my dual credit courses T_T), im kinda starting to warm up to it! side note, i had to start using vscode instead of brackets... where'd my live preview go?!?!?! :'(
